Friday, March 6, 2009 (:
enough.
january was my last post. WOW. haha. almost deleted my blog. well, many things have been happening lately. wait, check that, more like shit happening. things that happened seemed to have changed my life completely. my perception of everything just overturned. give you words to summarise what i went through? ha, VERY SIMPLE. disappointment(EXTREMELY), anger, pain and i can never forget this one, betrayal. oh gosh, god knows how much im trying to cope with everything. ): but i know im strong and i know that this is all not worth it. i repeat, NOT WORTH IT. seriously, im not afraid. cos i know i did not do anything wrong and i have every right to stand up for myself. fine, i know i've made my mistakes. i left for inappropriate reasons. but hey, at least i cared enough to leave okay? i knew things would just get worse if i didnt do it sooner. my feelings werent the same at that time and i know i was wrong to leave. but judging from everything, i was wrong to come back. and from deep down my heart, i
regret my actions. my hopes were just raised even higher, resulting it a more heavier fall. valentines day? WOW, UNBELIEVABLE. i took what the lord is telling me in another way, i took it at a more positive light. how much i wish i didnt, but god is good. he didnt want me to go on with my
plan. cos that was what he didnt want for me.
know what? enough about that, its just giving me unnecessary thoughts. well, i know id be okay. id be happier in fact, without whatever i use to have. im free and im loving it. haha. im not ready for anything right now, but i know ill learn again. and this time, i know what to give. even though i have nothing left, i know id get it grow again, this time even stronger. (: so im gonna make an official announcement.
lets close the book cos I AM GONNA MOVE ON! YEAAAAHH! promise.
G (:
