Saturday, June 21, 2008 (:
sometimes, surprises do hurt too.
looks like there's only 2 more days till the start school again. haha. its a mix of a happy and a mix of sad. as you know, i dont normally blog. i only blog if something different happens and shit. well, nothing really happened this time. its just that i found out something really really surprising and something that really hurt me. im not really gonna go into detail into it. but just a brief story of it. okay okay, lets just say that there is something i found out that completely conviced me to move on. and maybe to give up. i dont really know what to do right now. cos im just so disappointed and confused. love can really play jokes on you sometimes. jokes that might not be funny. before, when everybody persuaded me to love. i did, cos they really told me ALOT of positive things. i hate to think this way but everbody did make me hope so high. and now, im stuck in this circle, i cant seem to move on. even
though i was only with
her a month or so, it felt so.. different. honestly, like nothing i've ever felt before. i wont lie. i swear i loved that
girl. i loved her even though i knew i was gonna go through an extremely hard time.
but that never stopped me. okay fine, i know
she's going through an even harder time there, having a new home, new friends, i know its not easy. and i understand every single reason of why
she let me go. but its not easy for me too..
she doesnt know what i went through. well you know, i dont think it matters, cos
she wants to forget.
i dont know if im asking for much.. all i need is a chance. to explain myself. to explain everything that hurt. im not what
she thinks i am. i can do anything to prove that i did love
her. im not a bad person. i know i may look like i am. but im not.. i dont know what else i can say to prove that. IM NOT.
another girl, told me to forget too, to move on. maybe i should. maybe i should forget. maybe i shouldn't hope anymore.. just maybe.
ps: im sorry for being this emotional. im sorry if i irritated anyone in this post. i just wanted to set things straight.
