New blog song. its "why" by filipino, international RnB sensation, BILLY CRAWFORD. hope ya'll like it! haha. i took out the old one because it became a 30 second preview. so yeah.

looks like there's only 2 more days till the start school again. haha. its a mix of a happy and a mix of sad. as you know, i dont normally blog. i only blog if something different happens and shit. well, nothing really happened this time. its just that i found out something really really surprising and something that really hurt me. im not really gonna go into detail into it. but just a brief story of it. okay okay, lets just say that there is something i found out that completely conviced me to move on. and maybe to give up. i dont really know what to do right now. cos im just so disappointed and confused. love can really play jokes on you sometimes. jokes that might not be funny. before, when everybody persuaded me to love. i did, cos they really told me ALOT of positive things. i hate to think this way but everbody did make me hope so high. and now, im stuck in this circle, i cant seem to move on. even though i was only with her a month or so, it felt so.. different. honestly, like nothing i've ever felt before. i wont lie. i swear i loved that girl. i loved her even though i knew i was gonna go through an extremely hard time. but that never stopped me. okay fine, i know she's going through an even harder time there, having a new home, new friends, i know its not easy. and i understand every single reason of why she let me go. but its not easy for me too.. she doesnt know what i went through. well you know, i dont think it matters, cos she wants to forget.

i dont know if im asking for much.. all i need is a chance. to explain myself. to explain everything that hurt. im not what she thinks i am. i can do anything to prove that i did love her. im not a bad person. i know i may look like i am. but im not.. i dont know what else i can say to prove that. IM NOT.

another girl, told me to forget too, to move on. maybe i should. maybe i should forget. maybe i shouldn't hope anymore.. just maybe.

ps: im sorry for being this emotional. im sorry if i irritated anyone in this post. i just wanted to set things straight.

haha. wow wow wow.. looks like the holidays is gonna be over soon now huh? altough i did quite a number of work.. i dont think its enough!! haha. oh well.. might as well enjoy the remaining of my holidays. im freaking bored now. seriously. thats why im blogging. lol, anyway. nothing much has been happening lately in my life. its just the past that keep "passing" by once in a while. but ill get over it. i know i will. its hard, YES. but i know ill go through it. just gotta keep my mind of the things. altough i wish i had more help from the big guy up there. but i know everything happens for a reason. and i know that he wants this to happenin now. i realise something now though. everthing seems more quiet than before. i dont really laugh that hard anymore.(okay maybe when kyle slept over only we had a crazy slumber party). AND i still gotta prepare myself for the re-opening of the school. not only from my studies but i gotta prepare myself emotionally too. its defintely not gonna be an easy journey to the place called "moved on".

okay okay, some other stuff now. i dont really think that im gonna blog tmr so im gonna say what im gonna say. a HAPPY HAPPY 15th birthday to REGINA GORADA. DALAGA NA YUNG BATA!! haha. joke. im gonna be the first person she sees!! hahaha.

ps: maybe its just time to go for now. siguro wag ko na ipipilit..

adios amigos! (:

yeap. new blog song. i kinda just found out about that song today but it sounded really nice. AND the lyrics of the song hit me. for some reason i dont know why. haha. well, hope you like it just like i do! oh, and the singers is from jonasbrothers. he's name is nicholas jonas. this was his song when he was still young. sounds like a girl! haha. listen to the lyrics. and the tune is kinda catchy too.

PS: to SOME ppl out there, this song is not EMO. haha.

johnmari

hey, havent been blogging lately huh? well, that's cos nothing much has been going on. until today.. ive been really confused about alot of things.. not really gonna go into detail but its just something ive been dwelling on for quite some time. to cut things short. something happened that i must be able to move on from. a girl and i just ended our relationship of being together. at first i really didnt want to but things have become so complicated that i dont know what to do.. i was just hurting her all over and over again and i really hated that. what's more, i was just to scared to even make a move. you say it, im a coward whatever, but i just didnt know what to do.. but eventually, it happened. officially, we both decided that we cannot continue this.. we both knew that it wont go anywhere. so as much as it hurts, i know im gonna be okay.. and i hope that she would too. i know i dnt deserve a girl like her.. ill move on to be a better person.. with the help of god, nothing is impossible. so i thank you for everything that you gave me.. and you'll always be my sweet memory.. damnn.. im gonna hate the silence in the nights.. so i guess ill end my post here.. till next time.

joem.

he's JohnMariMagpantayPecson.
Filipino [proud to be!]
haves a passion for dancing and singing.
loves GOD, family, friends.
plays basketball, soccer and anyother sports you can think about.

i. am. me. (: